Well i was bored so i decided to update. Maybe if I get a good response i will start this again???

It’s the feeling of butterflies in your heart
when you hear his name
the constricting of your chest
when his eyes lock on yours
its called love, and it's rare
so grab it, and never let go.
Because once you walk away
THERE IS NO GOING BACK

I love people who make me laugh. I honestly
think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh.  It
cures a multitude of illnesses. It’s probably
the most important thing in a person.
--Audrey Hepburn.<3

Live life like there's no tomorrow. Love the people who treat you right, and realize that no matter what happens, they'll always love you. You can’t change the past, so look forward to the future. Live every day to the fullest, and have no regrets. Know that everything has its purpose, and that everything happens for a reason.

In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could re-play a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are, and in the end they shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are, so just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories, but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, & most importantly where it is your going.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"                             -Marilyn Monroe

We’re best friends. We have marker fights, chasing each other around the room. You never want to give us paint for an actual project, because it will all end up on us. We can never concentrate on anything when we're together, and it’s probably a bad idea to give us something complicated to do. We laugh about absolutely nothing, and get in trouble all the time. But all of this, its makes us best friends.

Years from now I wont remember
every Friday night, or the
things that made us laugh so
hard till our stomachs hurt, but
I will always remember that,
you were the ones who were there <3

He's the only person she wants to be
with. He means so much to her. She
loves his stupid jokes, how he can
change her entire day by just giving
her a hug, the way he can always make
her laugh, and how he’s by her side
through everything that goes wrong. All I could think about was that time
where we stayed up all night talking,
you didn't say that I was wrong, or stupid.
you didn't laugh at me when I confessed
my wildest dreams. you just listened.
and it was then that I knew,
I'm supposed to be with youI think everyone has a certain part of their lives where they truly wish they could just freeze time. Whether it was three years ago, today or still to come, whether it was just a moment, a whole day, or a whole summer. Everyone has a time in their life where they wish everything would just stop. The world would stop turning and people would stop changing. Because to them, at that time, everything was perfect

I don't want someone constantly saying
I'm beautiful, or hot, or sexy.
I want someone who will fight with me,
Tell me he hates me
&& acts like he's crying just so I will kiss him.
I want someone who will make fun of me,
Do things with me,
&& his friends,
&& not always do everything I say.
I don't want the "perfect guy" to every other girl.
I want my perfect guy.
The one who is nowhere near perfect
&& knows I'm not either,
But loves me anyways.

did you know that she doesn't care if you call her and wake her up in the middle of the night; or early in the morning. She hates arguing but you know she's good at it. she is terrified of the dark and gets even more terrified when something happens that even makes the slightest possibility that she is going to lose you Every time she sees you she can't help but smile. She can't wait too just run up too you and give you a hug because to her, that's the best feeling in the world. Yeah I guess you could just say that she would do anything for you.

it's a love thats unexplainable and uncontrollable too.
it's the kind that's found its way into your heart.
and no matter how many fights you get into,
or how many times you try to push it away ;
it's always going to be there. it's just love <3

the most memorable people in life will be the people who loved you when you weren't very lovable.

So, please, just be patient. I`m so afraid to care about someone.
I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through
everything, but inside I`m very fragile. I`ve had so many things
thrown at me, & each one has only made a crack.
What I`m afraid of is shattering.

I’m the kind of girl who laughs at jokes when they aren’t funny,
Who will do anything to make her friends smile,
Who wants to be with you more then anything else in the world.

She found a bad boy, one that would show her
It's better to live life in the fast lane.
And she showed him, that it's okay
to just let your guard down sometimes.
They filled those missing parts, they never knew they had.

I didn't even think I liked you.
Until I thought I lost you.
--The OC

Hold my hand and have a real conversation with me.
Tell me something you trust only a select few with.
Look me in the eyes and smile.
Tell me what you really think of me,
not what you want to think.
Give me a chance, let yourself fall.

you're the only one
i want to talk to at the end of the day
that definitly has to mean something

the course of true love never did run smooth
* William Shakespeare *

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I've learned that it's not what happens to people
that's important, it's what they do about it.
I've learned that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.
I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person
I want to be.
I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.
I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words,
it may be the last time you see them.
I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that sometimes I just need to be held.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.
I've learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don't know how to show it.
I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned that my best friends and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down
will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance, same goes for true love.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you
the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned that you should never tell a child her dreams are unlikely or outlandish.
Few things are more humiliating and what a tragedy it would be if she believed it.
I've learned that your family won't always be there for you.
It may seem funny,
but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again.
Families aren't biological.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others,
sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that sometimes when my friends fight,
I'm forced to choose sides even when I don't want to.
I've learned that just because two people argue,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other.
And just because they don't argue,
it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that we don't have to change friends
if we understand that friends change.
I've learned that if you don't want to forget something,
stick it in your underwear drawer.
I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret,
it could change your life forever.
I've learned that the clothes I like best are the ones with the most holes in them.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life,
but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing
and see something totally different.
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you,
all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to them.
I've learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
I've learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.
I've learned that many things can be powered by the mind,
the trick is self-control.
I've learned that no matter how many friends you have,
if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them the most.
I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can erase emotional pains.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned that although the word "love" can have many different meanings,
it loses value when overly used.
I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line
between being nice and not hurting people's feelings
and standing up for what you believe.

i realized how much he meant to me
when anything ever happened,
good or bad, i wanted to tell him about.
he was the first person i wanted to know,
& i couldn`t wait to tell him, & talk to him,
& listen to him & it`s like i love learning
new things every time i talk to him.

Guys always make girls cry.
But if a girl can make a guy cry...
She must really mean something to him.

I feel comfortable around you.
When I was with you, I didn't
have to be perfect. I didn't even
have to try for perfect. You
already knew all my secrets..
the things I kept hidden from
everyone else. So I was able to
finally just be myself. Which
probably shouldn't have been
such a big deal. But it was..

I need a guy who can make me laugh just by the way he says hello when I pick up the phone. The guy who makes my hands shake when I'm sitting right next to him. & the guy who isn't afraid to keep hugging me when I'm not ready to let go.

he's my best friend you know ?
the kind where at the end of the
day i love to come home  &&
talk to him the kind where i long
for the weekend so i can see him 
he`s more than my best friend ;
            he`s my world

these are the    people you      can just
              start to     crack up with and they  [<3]   know
              what you are laughing about even     though
              everyone else around you thinks your h i g h <3 these are Best Friends

I know im not a lot of things you've gone for
in the past, I know. but I would never leave you
I would never hurt you, & I would never stop loving you
---Grey's Anatomy

i love you because you've been my best friend,
you were always there when i needed you,
you can always make me laugh,
you can always make me smile,
and some how you've made me
fall in love with you.

I held him close to me with my eyes closed, wondering if anything in my life had ever been this perfect, and knowing at the same time that it hadn't. I was in love, and the feeling was even more wonderful than I ever imagined it could be

That's the problem with us, we're too much alike.
We're stubborn asses & always want to get our
own way. We both hate to be wrong & love to
be right. But that's the thing about love. No matter
what happens, we always come back for each
other one more time.

She doesn't care if you call her and wake her up in the middle of the night. She hates arguing, but you know she's good at it. She's terrified of the dark, but when she thinks of you, she smiles. She laughs at your jokes even if they're dumb. She loves the way you look at her, and she wouldn't change that for the world.

It's those moments when you drive around
in a car full of friends around a town too small for you.
Where you gasp for breath between each laugh.
It's those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep,
you feel your lungs getting cold.
For a second,
that split second,
you don't care.
You don't care about school,
about parents, about money,
about rules, or broken hearts.
Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you.
Cause it's all we really need isn't it?
Those kids next to you.
Yeah,
the ones who make you feel invincible,
even at your weakest points.

i love you because you've been my best friend,
you were always there when i needed you,
you can always make me laugh,
you can always make me smile,
and some how you've made me
fall in love with you.

it’s the way you absently play with my rings
While we lay & watch TV
& it’s the way you lightly tilt my chin
While you look right into my eyes before we kiss
& it’s the way you think you are so macho & tough
While you are just as much of a mush as me
& it’s the way I can escape into my head
While I replay moments of us in my mind
& it’s the way you kiss me
While everything else in the world disappears
& it’s the way we can just stare into each others eyes
While not one word is said
& it’s the way we joke about missing each other all day
While we’ve never been more serious
& it’s the way I can’t stop thinking of you
While I go about my day

Once I was told, "You can't always have great. Every now & then you're going to have to settle for good enough." That's not true. When you can't have great, it means you're not supposed to have great. It means that you're supposed to have something better than just great. It means you're supposed to have something amazing. Or maybe, if you're lucky, something extraordinary.

Love isn't what your friends or family think; it's what you think. Love isn't anyone else's problem but the peoples in love. Love isn't based upon sex. Love is based upon two people who are exactly alike. Who needs money or cars when you have love? A relationship isn't perfect; it has its good times & its bad times, & when you argue, you make up no matter how bad it is. Cheating is forgivable, but if you love the person like you say you do, there is no reason to cheat because they are the only person you need. Love is forever even if you break up; if you loved the person when you break up, you still will. Love isn't about age; age is just a number. It's about how you treat each other, not how old they are. Love hurts & sometimes relationships don't work out & you will cry, but you will find true love one day. You'll never know when love is going to hit you, & when it hits you, it will hit hard. Once it hits, its hard to get back up again. Love hurts, but it's worth the pain.

Do it today. It could
be illegal tomorrow

You just have to go
after what you want and
if it doesn't want you back
then so be it. It doesn't
deserve you anyways.
- Nicole Richie

Don’t settle for the one
who kisses your ass.
Wait for the one who
pushes your buttons
& pisses you off on a
daily bases. Love isn’t
suppose to be easy.
It’s suppose to be worth it

Girls like us don't come around too often.
Either you love us or you hate us, but
you're wasting your time trying to be us
and you sure as hell can't join us.

Love is when I hang up
on you, and when you
don't call back within
five minutes, I call you back

Sometimes what you want isn't
always what you get, but in the end
what you get is so much better than
what you wanted

A real friend is someone who tries
to pick you up when you've fallen,
& if they can't pick you up,
then they lay down right beside you

Being a bitch means :
I stand up for myself and my beliefs. I stand up for those
I love. I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do
things my way. I won't compromise what's in my heart, I
live my life my way. I won't allow anyone to step on me, I
refuse to tolerate injustice. It means I have the courage &
strength to allow myself to be me. So try to stomp on, douse
my inner flame, squash every ounce of beauty I hold within.
You won't succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.
I embraced the title and I'm proud to be a bitch.

When we first met, I didn't want to get
involved with anyone. I didn't have the
 time or energy & I wasn't sure that I was
 ready for it. But you were so good to me
 & I got swept up in that & little by little
I found myself falling in love with you.

sometimes I get a little crazy ;;
go out on a limb without ever thinking twice.
letting myself get caught up in these
silly little games that have been so long
overplayed. but it's thrilling, it's exciting,
it keeps me on the edge of my seat. 

True love doesn't have a happy ending
because true love never ends.

cause everybody needs somebody [ sometimes ] <3

when you were little
did you ever spread your
arms out and spin?
It`s like love. Inside,
you're telling yourself to
stop because you might get
hurt, but you don't want
to.. you just want to
keep on spinning.

To live is
the rarest thing.
Most people
only exist

You don't love a girl because
she is beautiful.
She is beautiful because you love her

There’s friends,
then there’s
best friends.
There is
a difference

This is not who I meant to be. This is not how I meant to feel. I don't think I am strong enough to do this much longer. God, I wish I was stronger.

What do you want me to say? we can be friends? You don't get it.
When you really love someone you can't just be their friend.
And I don't want half of you

so here's a piece of advice: let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, and move on when things are not like before. for surely there is someone out there who will love you even more

I have always had this tendency to assume
that change, when it happens, can only be
for the worse you know? And lately, I kinda
feel like that's not true. Like, whatever's
waiting for me out there may not be that bad.
-Dawson's Creek

Do your nights feel incomplete without our phone calls? Mine do. Do your eyes feel like they’re burning out of your skull? Mine too. Is it just our little routine that we’re missing so bad? Or is it the fact that we’re both losing the best friend that we ever had?

You're nice until I like you. And
then you're a jerk until I hate you.

I don't want clever conversation, I never want to work that hard.
I just want someone that I can talk to. I want you just the way you are.

Tragedies happen, what are you going to do, give up now? No, I realize now when your heart breaks you gotta fight like hell to make sure your still alive, because you are, and that pain you feel, thats life. The confusion and fear thats there to remind you that somewhere there`s something better, and that something is worth fighting for

Theres a girl i can run to and she will always be there.  I love her to death. We're the nerds who run around quoting dane cook and laughing at the people who dont get it. We stay up late talking even when we swear that "this time honestly we're going to bed." We got eachothers back and we have numerous amounts of inside jokes. we've known eachother for years and nothing can change the bond we have now. We're sisters. best friends. partners in crime. and family.

i was trying not to get too attached
so i wouldn't fall too hard, too fast.
but i realized that i fell a long time ago
and now im loving you with all that i have.

peppermint candycanes

snow on all the window panes

cold breezes and winter storms

always trying to keep warm

presents, gifts, and crazy laughter

christmas time is being together

People say there's always a perfect person out there for everyone but I seriously think mine is hiding form me…or got hit by a truck

I need to come to realize that he's just a guy,
a special one, maybe, but he's not mine.
I don’t need to do things to make him love me.
if he wanted to, he would.

 i want to be the kind of girl who leaves an
everlasting impression. I don't want to be
the type that you'll forget in a week. I want
to be hard to forget. I want to have the kind
of impact on someone where they know
they'll never find anyone else who could
ever take my place.

I smile because when I cry, it doesn`t help. When I cry all it does is make people ask me if I'm okay. I would love nothing more than to punch these people. I'm sitting here, crying, but yes, I'm perfectly happy. I mean, come on. Give me a break. Obviously I`m not fine

Sometimes, I just miss that boy. The one who held my hand walking down the street; who's arms I laid in & never wanted to go away. The one who I talked to for hours & told pointless stories to. The one who knew everything about me & liked me anyway. The one who knew exactly what I was saying even if I didn't, & helped me when I had no clue what to do. The one who showed me what love was & what it was like to need someone there. The one who could only make me cry & hurt me like no other guy could. Those eyes that said everything, that sense of sarcasm that was always there; the way even he couldn't stop from falling in love. That even though we fought constantly & couldn't stand each other, we couldn't leave each other's side. Something is still there; something that never left me the day that boy broke my heart in two. Something like your first love that wasn't ready to end. Something that makes your stomach flip at the brush of a hand or arm. Something that makes it so much harder to know that he's not yours anymore, but hers. Something that makes you want to hide away & cry all those tears, because suddenly all of those memories come back & it almost hurts worse to know that it's all out of control. And you just miss everything about that boy that isn't ever coming back.

Dear Girl,
I realize now that it's over for us
and I wish to say that every moment spent with you
was like a dream come true. 
It'll be hard to go back out into the world without you,
but I know that you loved me and that I loved you. 
Somewhere along the lines, we ran out of the spark we once had,
and it's really hard to say goodbye. 
But know this, everyday from here on in,
you'll be the girl that everyone gets compared to,
and I hope that one day I find someone just as great as we once were
and I hope that the two of us will never run out of that spark.
  You will always remain my first love.
Goodbye,
Boy

Dear Boy,
I'm moving in a couple of days and I was packing up all the boxes when I noticed your letter that you sent to me.  I decided to read it and cried.  Because you were the one other boys got compared to, and it was hard to find the next best boy for me.  But, I did, and after five long years, we still have that spark with us.  I hope you find the girl for you, who has the same spark we once had.  I wish you all the best in the future.  You will always remain my first love.
Goodbye and Good luck,
Girl

It takes a great deal of courage to
stand up to your enemies,
but a great deal more to
stand up to your friends.

She blows big bubbles with her gum.
& laughs when they pop all over her pretty face.
She dances in her victoria secret's underwear
She takes crazy pictures && posts them on her myspace
&& to her friends..she's a star.
Because she realized that life is way too short
to be crying over the asshole that broke her heart.

people say i'm a bad influence ..
i say the world's already fucked up
» i'm just addin to it

she was precious like a flower.
she grew wild, wild but innocent.
a perfect prayer in a desperate hour,
she was everything beautiful and
different. stupid boy..you can't
fence that in stupid boy. it's like
holding back the wind. oh you
always had to be right, but
now you've lost the only thing
that ever made you feel alive.

He had dark hair and that bad boy attitude. The kind of attitude that anyone who cared to look twice could see right through. The thing was, nobody ever cared to look twice. Nobody, that is, until her.

EDIT- sorry about how like messy this post is. my computer is being gay and whatnott. so lets try to get 15 comments for a new updatee! and everything thanks for all of the advicee! feel free to keep it coming!

*edit* His reason was that something just told him he shoulnt date me anymore, and like that he couldn't control it..

OKay. Sorry for the lack of updates. I've been really busy and VERY stressed. SO i need somewhere to spill my guts, so I figured why not here? lol okay.. well me and this guy- ( lets call him mike) okay so me and mike had been dating for about 8 months ( December 16 would have been dating 9 months...) We were so much in love. Don't ask me how I knew it, but I just did. Its an incredible feeling. We had both dated other people before, so we knew this feeling was for real. Mike was the kind of guy that everyone expected me not to date. We are complete opposites.. but I think thats what made us closer.. like we completed each other.. you know? We came from two very different life styles. At first when we started to talk and date and whatnot, I wasnt to crazy about him.. but somehow he won my heart over big time. When i was with him, i was nothing but ALL smiles. All of my friends and family knew it. We argued alot, but it was over stupid stuff and usally it brought us closer. One thing we had in common was that we were both veryy stuborn and had to always be right. Anyway, these past about 5 or 6 months have been PERFECT. I dont think I can even explain how great they were. I really really love this boy. But i noticed last night when we went eat out something was wrong with him. So i asked him and it took him a while to tell me but he said he just couldnt be in this anymore. He said he really and truly loves me and he always will. He said he will not get into another realationship for at least two years. I really do love him. I love him with everything in me, and it sucks so bad. He was my best friend. He said we will still talk and hopefully he will be able to think it over and one day we can date again. God i hope so. But im having a VERY hard time dealing with it... I have cried pretty much since he dropped me off and told me he loved me. Anyone have any advice? please help..

UPDATEE!!

i need someone who can keep up with me. i want someone aggressive, who pushes me to my breaking point where i just wanna scream. someone who will tell me that i'm not always right, and that sometimes i have to apologize for what i do wrong. i need someone who's gonna set me straight because no one has ever cared enough about me to try.

The truth? when theres something you want fight for it. dont give up no matter how hopeless it seems because years from now you are going to look back and wish you would have gave one more shot because the best things in life dont come easy.

You walked away from
the one person who
never left your side

..wait for the boy who will be your bestfriend; the boy who will drop everything to be with you at anytime of the day no matter what the circumstance is. wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other & when he smiles you know he needs you. wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats & have no make-up on. most of all, wait for the boy who puts you at the center of his universe; because obviously he'll be at the center of yours too<3

And all she needs right now
is for him to wrap her up in his
arms, look her in the eyes, and
tell her he wont give up.

Don't say we're  not right for each other;

 cause the ways i see it we're not right for anyone else

its three in the morning and your STILL on my mind <3

She was the kind of girl who didn't fall in love easily, until he came along & changed evereything..

and the truth is, there are no happy
endings.if there were happy endings to
happiness, it was never real.there is
hope in every one of us, that we can
find happiness.maybe we will. but for
most of us, happiness seems too far
away.people spend their whole lives
chasing after it when it should really
be chasing after you.

She's afraid that after all this waiting,
he'll end up with another girl.
She's afraid of what hasn't happened yet.
And most of all, she's afraid she'll never find
someone who could compare to him.

Sometimes you feel everything
and nothing all at once.
Sometimes you'll find
yourself smiling while missing
someone at the same time.
At times you can absolutely
love a person, all the while
wanting to hate them.
Life comes without guarantees,
expect that smiling will
brighten your face.
laughing will enhance your eyes
and falling in love will change your life.

missing someone isn't about how
long it's been since you've seen
them last or the amount of time since
you've talked. it's about that very
moment when you're doing something,
and you wish that they were right
there with you

do you know her favorite color is purple,
or that shes afraid of big stroms?
do you know she cant sleep without at least four pillows,
or that when someone mentions you her eyes sparkle?
do you know her favorite song,
or even her favorite band?
she doesnt like to say i love you
if she thinks she may not mean it.
did you know she hates argruing,
but that shes good at it.
she loves the way you look at her
but hates to go a day without talking to you.
she loves just being next to you,
 and she hopes you love it too..

She let you go even though
it broke her heart
- The OC

And I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I might never talk to you again.
And I won't feel the same about anyone the way
I feel when I'm with you. I'm afraid that you'll
find someone else and feel different for some
other girl. And I'll just be an old school memory

I'm you're typical girl. I cry at sad parts in a movie.
I like dressing in a million different styles, & yes, on occasion,
I show too much skin. I like every type of music,
even if I won't admit to people that I do.
Most people say that they have they have the entire world,
but I really do. I trust very few people, but try & like everyone.
I tell everyone how much I hate school, but I appreciate my education.
 I eat junk food when I'm bored, hungry, or anytime in between.
When I'm out with my friends, I go to the bathroom in those clichXroups,
& talk about the boys I'm with. Somewhere in that group of boys
 is that one special guy. It's that boy, who every girl has.
It's that boy who makes you shake & act like a dork.
He makes you forget what you want to say,
& make your words come out slurred.
 & even though he has your heart, you're not sure you want to change that.

i want someone who won't care that i'm incapable
of sitting still. that i can't grasp the concept of
cleaning. that i refuse to be ladylike. someone
who realizes half the decision i make are usually
ones i regret, and i have the right to over react at
any given time. i want someone who knows how
completly insane i am, and wouldn't want me any other way

she has never been one to wait around
she's always moving, dancing, and running
but for some reason, with him?
she's patient, she'll wait
she has never waited for anything, anyone, except him.

I have this feeling and it's driving me crazy.
it's telling me not to give up on us
and that if i poured my heart out to you,
everything would be alright.

 you were a risk; you were a huge risk
and your the reason
i dont take risks anymore

while they dance she holds him close. while he
dreams of another he can't wait to let her go.
same old story that everyone knows. one heart
holding on, the other letting go.

& those rambling conversations
where we'd talk about nothing,
baby that meant something.

Our story has three parts: a begining, a middle, an end.
And although this is the way all stories unfold, I still can't
believe that ours didn't go on forever.
- Nicholas Sparks.

I don't want things to be like this anymore,
I want to talk to you, and I want to be with you.
But it seems like every time we're close,
something happens and we're right back to fighting.
And the truth is, I hate not talking to you.

I don't know why.
Maybe it's because you're mad,
maybe it's because you're afraid,
maybe it's because you're also a little confused,
maybe it's because you want to act cool;
but whatever the reason,
you're breaking my heart.

Pain is knowing
you are right for each other,
just not right now.

I wanted you to know, my
heart remains with you.

It was hard to let go. 'Cause when I was around him,
I was just me. I didn't have to be anyone but myself.
People like that are hard to find. And I think once we
lost those people, we were afraid we'd never find them again.

As I lay here in my bed I will never forget the
way you hugged me the way you loved me,
the things you'll never do again.

Maybe instead of thinking you know everything,
let go of your ego for awhile & you'd start to get to know her.
And maybe if you threw away your fears of getting hurt,
& just loved her, maybe you two could make it.

&& i can’t even count on my fingers
how many people have given me the your better off without him speech.
still i dont understand how being like this is considered being better off.
Do you know i haven’t slept well in weeks? Eaten in days?
i haven’t thought of anything besides you.
if this is what being better off is all about, then
yeah I’ve never been better.

okayy

so you guyes probably think i have forgoten about you?? Im SO SORRYY! I am just so busy with school and track and my boyfriend and friends it so hard to fine time to do thiss! I actually have an update ready, I just need to put icons/ pictures in itt! I will try to updtate ASAP!! please be try to be paintent..

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